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Okay.
Thats it, most guys are jerks. Period...Punto!
And if you want to argue my statement then you're more than welcome to try it.
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| "Don't you worry about the distance, I'm right here if you get lonely" |
[08 Jul 2007|11:32pm] |
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Yeh know what?
I'm sick of people telling me what to be.
I know what I frickin' want, you don't have my heart, my thoughts or my goals. This is the path I choose, not yours. Of course I like other people's guidance and help, usually appreciate it too. But you can't mold me to your 'perfect' person and restrain me from doing what I need to do. There's no success in if suffocation is all I feel, even if I become a multi-millionare one day, or become some big-shot name. It's not what I wanted, it's not what I'll ever want either. That's great for the other huge percent of the human population that wants money, fame, popularity and all the jazz. Sorry, I must've been born differently than the rest of humanity then. Money and fame are pretty chill...of course having a Jaguar or mansion is amazing, but what's the difference after I die? Just like from 'the Departed',(paraphrased) "Whether you're a criminal or saint, when you're behind a gunpoint, what's the difference? So I'd rather die doing what I want to do then what the rest of the world wants. No regrets!
The end. Just had to let it out.
Thursday - leaving for Chicago. I'm taking that needed vacation from work. Phew.
I love him, he's the best. :)
I crave: Bubble tea...I need: to visit Chinatown, or meet up w/ Ana sometime soon
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| If you step up, I'll step up too. |
[07 Jul 2007|01:38am] |
Help, please?
Anyone who happens to read this, my teacher asked me to pick three classical pieces (or Japanese/Chinese music with substance) for next year's recital. If anyone has recommendations that'd be great, thanks.
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| Where is the love? |
[25 Jun 2007|01:51pm] |
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Work Schedule at Carvel -
Monday(Bloomfield) - 5-10
Tuesday(Bloomfield) 5-9
Wednesday(Nutley) 3-10:30
Thursday(Nutley) 3-10:30
Friday - OFF : Cara's Sweet 16
Saturday (Nutley) 5-10:30
Sunday (Nutley) 3-10:30
Holy shizniz, I'll be sick of scooping yo' ice cream in no time. As my coworker says though, "It's all for the dough."
Gotta love those first times. <3<3<3 Mahal Kita, Pooh Bear!
I can't wait for Chicago.
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| "Love is a battlefield" |
[15 Jun 2007|11:06pm] |
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Tonight's the most fun I've had in ages.
I'm alive and breathing again, thank you for friends who make you laugh until your guts want to spill out. Thank you for summer nights, a time where the burden of life does not lie upon your shoulders.
New job, same franchised company, gonna do my best to make things work.
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| Emo statement |
[10 Jun 2007|06:18pm] |
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Lesson learned: There comes a point in life where the past is irrelevant, and the future is distant and somewhat hopeless. All you can do is scrutinize the present and feel a cazillion things: passion, love, heartache, anger, temptation...the present can entertain you for hours. And I know the answer to destiny is hiding somewhere, but you can't search too hard because you'll miss the big picture. Can't miss the big opportunity. Carpe diem Sieze the f'in day!
Went to Carly's Graduation party today. I love Mount Class of '07 to death, they will be missed greatly.
Three exams down, three to go until I'm a senior in high school.
Summer, I am so ready for you.
As Bon Jovi says, "We're halfway there, livin on a prayer."
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[04 Jun 2007|05:29pm] |
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Oh. my. goodness.
Dad told me to drive his car from the office to the house. I didn't estimate backing up next to Jule's car and half-way ripped off the Ford Focus' right rear view mirror. It's still on the car, but the mistake protrudes and is definitely noticable. He shouldn't have parked his car so damn far out, and I should'nt have had attempted to park like dad.
Jule's gonna kill me!
Uhhh, I don't have the heart to tell him...yikes.
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| Last night...couldn't even get an answer |
[19 May 2007|02:49pm] |
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Your Score: Myrna LoyYou scored 11% grit, 19% wit, 33% flair, and 42% class!You are class itself, the calm, confident "perfect woman." Men turn and look at you admiringly as you walk down the street, and even your rivals have a grudging respect for you. You always know the right thing to say, do and, of course, wear. You can take charge of a situation when things get out of hand, and you're a great help to your partner even if they don't immediately see or know it. You are one classy dame. Your screen partners include William Powell and Cary Grant, you little simmerpot, you.
Find out what kind of classic leading man you'd make by taking the Classic Leading Man Test.
So...I'm in the mood for Starbucks right now. I scanned papers and printed checks for three hours, hell, I think I deserve a good drink. A venti caramel frappucino would pair nicely with a tomato sandwich.
But it's raining and disgusting outside, plus the minivan (my sister's actually) is at half-tank. I just paid mom 30 bucks to re-fill it three days ago. I got lost in Montclair last night, searching for the high school to manage a track meet. And when I finally arrived, there was no track or field in sight. I bursted into the high school's gym and asked the volleyball players for directions. All the guys stared and then shrugged at me. I had to smile at their helplessness, considering it's their home track field. Eventually, I found one guy who directed me down the street, thank God.
Amy didn't need a manager today anyway. I sat back and watched fellow trackies run, bumped into Matt again (I swear we're secretly stalking each other), talked to Brittany about boy bands, random fun things, etc. My thumb hurts because it got stuck inside a tent while attempting to take it down.
Oh, hermana, I am jealous you are enjoying beautiful Hawaiian weather as Jersey people suffer from 52 degree weather.
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| Ch-ch-ch.....NO! |
[23 Apr 2007|05:09pm] |
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I failed the drivers test today. It was a justified failure, I won't deny it.
The driver instructor was a mean, middle-aged woman in a terrible mood. I was a nervous confused-looking, test taker who rolled stop signs, messed up the K-turn, parked too far from the curb and didn't signal. Oh, and she failed me for looking confused. (I'm serious, she mistook my nervous face as uncertainty. On my test results she wrote the word 'confused')
Grr, I wanted that lisence desperately so I wouldn't have to mooch rides from everyone else.
Well, I thought I could drive, I thought I could do math, and I thought I could get a cool job...
Apparently, the world doesn't agree.
At least I gave it a shot. Two weeks from now is the next chance I get to prove I'm a decent driver.
Uhhh, Happy Belated 17th Birthday to me.
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| Tick, tick, tick |
[10 Apr 2007|12:36pm] |
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I finlly took a train today.
The trip went smoothly, except, er, for those ticket machines. The machine at Penn Station wanted fifteen bucks for a metro card. It asked how many trips I wanted on the metro card, "11....20...40?" I don't need that many trips!, was all I could think. I must've stared at the machine for several minutes figuring out how to get one small ticket. If the Chinese man walking by did not inform me "you no need ticket! pay upstairs." then I might've wasted an entire 15 dollars!
Ah, but on the bright side, I am in Jersey City and not lost in NYC. So here I am, sitting in an empty office with a stack of SAT books, a computer and peanut rice balls.
The silence here is quite eerie. In a working state, silence does not bother me at all. I hear the clock in the other room ticking though. You'd think in a busy place like Jersey City clients would happily pass by because they need taxes. But nope, three hours and not a single sound. Except for the handsome Filipino postman who could be happily married. (Aw, that makes me a filthy person) No wonder my uncle left this job, sitting here is unbearably boring! Darn, I should've brought The Departed and watched it on the computer. I need some male hottness (Leo and Matt) to spice up this monotonous job.
Tonight, I'm also in-training for a real job. I was offered a job to be a hostess at a diner. It's usually a busy place and requires outgoingness, depite my timid and shy personality. So who knows if I can even handle it? I can't believe I got it right when I asked. On Saturday, the guy at the counter just asked to, "Come back Tuesday at five. Then I'll train you to be a hostess." I'm almost suspicious, but excited....:/
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[28 Mar 2007|08:02pm] |
| Your Element Is Air | 
You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.
And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.
Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.
You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.
You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.
With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that! |
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| "MY MARRIAGE AGE IS..." |
[22 Mar 2007|07:38am] |
[x] know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I keep track of dates using a calender.
[]I own more than one credit card.
[] I know how to change the oil in my moms car.
[ ] I do my own laundry.
[x] I vote every election. (i would if i was 18)
[x] I can cook for myself
[] I think politics are exciting.
[] I balance my checkbook.
[] My parents have better things to say than my friends.
total:4
[x] I show up for school/college/work every day early.
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[] I've never gotten a detention.
[] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[x] I have never gotten completely trashed.
[ ] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[ ] I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
[x]I drink coffee at least once a week.
[]I drink coffee everyday.
total:10
[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 10 in another language.
[x]When I say I'm going to do something I do it.
[x] My parents trust me.
[x] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[x] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at school/college.
[x] I remember to feed my pets.
total:21
[x] can spell 'experience' without looking it up
[] I work out on a regular basis.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[] The people at Starbucks know me by name.
[ ] my favorite kind of food is take out.
[ ] I have gained weight since middle/high school.
[] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[]I understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly.
total:25
[] have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[] My only friends are from my place of employment.
[x] I have been to a tupperware party.
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[] I have more bills than I can pay.
[] All my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[x]My wardrobe hasn't changed in a while.
[x]I can read a book and actually finish it.
total:31
Add it all up and subtract 10 and post this as "MY MARRIAGE AGE IS..."
Getting married at 21 according to this thing.
That would be interesting.
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[10 Feb 2007|08:07pm] |
I can't believe the Soda Pop Shop won't be in Montclair anymore.
Bummer.
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JANUARY
1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? A lot
2. Who kissed you at midnight? Kissed my entire family on the cheek.
4. Do you like hot chocolate? Heck yes.
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop? Nope. Once I'm old enough I plan on it.
FEBRUARY
1. Who was your Valentine? No one. *sigh*
2. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class? Nope.
3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not? Yeah. Even if my mom asks why I still believe in the groundhog. But 60% of the time Mr. Groundhog is right about the weather.
MARCH
1. Are you Irish? Nope.
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day? The Mount makes us.
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2006? Eat green bagels and sleep.
APRIL
1. Do you like the rain? Yeah. Not too much of it though.
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? I tried to play one on my brother, but obviously he has to be smarter than me.
Do you get tons of candy on Easter? No I didn't. But the Chinese food my family bought accounts for candy.
4. Do you celebrate 4/20? No because my b-day is April 22nd. (B-EARTH DAY)
MAY
1. What's your favorite kind of flower? White roses and cherry blossoms
2. Do you like the spring? Yes! Cherry blossom time is beautiful in my town.
3. Finish the phrase "April showers bring": Allergies!...and May flowers
4. What is the first color you think of when you think of Spring? Light pink
JUNE
1. What year did/will you graduate from high school? 2008
2. Did you realize nothing special happens in June? Yeah. But getting out of school is exciting enough.
JULY
1. What did you do on the Fourth of July? Watched a movie with Zara. Made chicken kabobs, then got free sundaes with Emma and her sis from McDonalds. Sat on the sidewalks and watched fireworks. That was a good day.
2. Did you go on any vacations during this month?: Hah. No.
3. Do you blast the A/C all day? Since I sit in the office most of my summer the A/C is always blasting.
AUGUST
1. Did you do anything special at the end of your summer? My favorite Uncle Jack and Tita Richel stopped by, we went to see Ellis Island/S.O.L. together. Then spent the rest of the time with Carinna at Isabella's annual b-day party.
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '06? Sitting in an outdoor jacuzzi with Carinna in the rain reading mags. Along with the beginning of cotillion practices and running camp.
3. Did you have a sunburn? Yeah. I used to run a lot back in the day.
4. Do you go to the beach a lot? Nope.
SEPTEMBER
1. Did you start school? Yeah.
2. Did you celebrate homecoming? No. At an all-girls school there's no football team.
3. Anything special happen in September? Uh, no. I get uber stressed out.
4. Did anything really good/ bad happen? Nah.
OCTOBER
1. Do anything Halloween-related? Parties, cotillion, gave out candy and trick-or-treated
2. What were you for Halloween? A Medieval time witch.
3. Carve pumpkins? Nope.
NOVEMBER
1. Did you celebrate Thanksgiving? Mmhmm, lots of FOOD.
2. Watch football? Nope
3. Went anywhere special? My aunt's house in Parsippany
DECEMBER
1. Do you like Christmas? Yes and no. It's nice but stressful.
2. Do you have Christmas break? Yeah. Too short. It's only 2 weeks!
3. Are you excited for a new year? Indeed.
4. Are you gonna kiss your crush under mistletoe? Christmas passed.
5. Are you gonna tell him/her that you like them? It's an impossible situation here.
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1. Are you currently mad at someone?
Yeah. Not at a friend though. I'm mad at one of my parents.
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper?
My brother and dad are tied.
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
Yeah.
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry?
My face is ALWAYS red
5.Do you scream or stare at someone when you get angry?
Both, and very intensely.
ORANGE - EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
Nope...well, Joe and Chris came by with ice cream cakes one time. That surprised me because I didn't expect anything to happen.
2. Are you easily excited?
Yeah. Don't show it though, but usually I am.
3. What event is coming up that you're most excited about?
Franzie's cotillion next Sunday!
4. If you won a 100 million dollars, what would be your first thought?
pay off debts, give some to my family and charity. Then use the leftovers to travel the world and vacation.
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
Freedom, less restrictions...mmm and a different personality.
YELLOW-SELF DISCOVERY
1. Name:
Jacklyn B. B--------
2. When were you born?:
Apr 22nd 1990
3. What's your main goal in life?:
To live. You only get one life.
4. Do you want to have children?
Yeah, I dunno about the married part though.
5. How do you want to die?
Least painful
PURPLE - LOVE
1. Do you love someone?
I platonically love my family and friends. No guys though.
2. Do you have a crush/boyfriend/girlfriend?
I have a crush on lots of guys, but nothing too intense.
4. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yeah I do.
5. Have you ever been in love?
Nope.
Q&A
Q: How many beds did you lay in yesterday?
Three...all in my house though. Don't get suspicious ;)
Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: White tanktop
Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
A: Eat?
Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
A: $0000000000000...but dads giving allowance tomorrow.
Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: A water bottle
Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: I borrowed my sister's skirt a lot during the summer.
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: Myspace, seventeen, xanga and livejournal
Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: Nah they'd probably die
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: My thighs...soreness from running.
Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?
A: From Belleville to Bloomfield.
Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: Yeah, but my brother's handi-down Sony Ericcson freezes all the time.. I need a new phone.
Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: Last Saturday when dad wouldn't let me go out.
_______Last________
1. Person you saw: Ms. Bono
2. Hugged: Uhh one of the guys at cotillion practice.
3. Movie watched in cinema: Can't remember. I think Fast and Furious...(need to go to the movies NOW)
4. Song you listened to: 'Come Back to Me' Vanessa Anne-Hudgens
______Today________
1. What are you doing now: About to study
2. What are you doing tonight: Finish homework...unfortunately
3. What are you going to eat for dinner: I already ate a sho-pao
______Tomorrow_____
1. Is: Sunday
2. Goal: Hang out with Jenn to catch up
3. Are you going to laugh: I hope so
________Currently_________
1. Currently love someone: I love my fam and friends
2. Like someone: Yeah...but i find the situation impossible and already gave up.
3. Does someone like you?: Have a feeling...but not too sure
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| This is what i do when i'm depressed |
[08 Oct 2006|10:18pm] |
| Your Five Factor Personality Profile | 
Extroversion:
You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."
Conscientiousness:
You have low conscientiousness.
Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.
Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.
Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.
Agreeableness:
You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.
Neuroticism:
You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is medium.
You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.
But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.
You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue. |
| You Are A Loyal Sidekick | 
While you aren't the most visable one in your group...
You're always up for a good time or conversation
And you stick with your friends no matter what
You may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way! |
| You Are Most Like Richard Nixon | 
Oh sure, you give people plenty of reasons to call you "Tricky Dick."
But you're actually quite diplomatic, even though you secretly hate your enemies. |
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| Oh no.... |
[30 Sep 2006|07:08pm] |
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I feel very sick.
My body gets cold, then hot, cold, then hot. Must be the fever.
I'm going to sleep for twelve hours. Good nite.
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| No escape from reality... |
[26 Sep 2006|07:21pm] |
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School makes me want to bang my head against a desk! Homework kills, and the teachers never chill. (That's an assonance right there...ha! Props to British Literature.) In study, I napped for fifteen minutes and dreamed about pleasant memories. Then Mrs. Ford distracted me by asking if I had any homework to complete. Grrr, who knows what would've happened in my dreams if Mrs. Ford left me alone.
Otherwise, I'm on a semi-runner's high from today's race. My self-expectations have dropped immensely this year. My final time for three miles went down three minutes. I stopped pushing myself for unknown reasons. Which is unusual, because I'm a person who usually has high standards.
A self-note...
I decided to stay on cross country next season, just because:
a. I must redeem myself and hit better times.
b. The XC team is uber laid-back and cool.
c. Amy (my coach) is the most encouraging, emphatic coach I've ever encountered. I've gone through enough sports, (bench-warmed most of them too) to make this conclusion.
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